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The Rise Of My Self-Confidence I would like to begin my soul-baring by sharing with you that my name is Christina and I am from Champaign, IL. My town isn't small but it definitely isn't big and we do not have a lot of "young modders." I would also like to state that I am proud to be a young modder and wouldn't change my decisions for anything. I have never been comfortable with myself. I have never been happy in my own skin, until now. Body modification has helped me feel beautiful and has gave me the confidence I need. It began at the ripe old age of 13 (haha). I hated myself. I was slightly overweight and not very popular. I moved a lot as a child and was again at a new school. This definitely didn't help my self-esteem in any way. I have always been into piercings and tattoos. I don't like to refer to them as "modifications" because I consi der it art. Anyway, I decided at this time to get my nose pierced. I didn't see anybody else with it and thought it would be interesting. It turned out to be a bad idea because it was done with a gun (and I have since found out that you never get pierced with a gun), but it was still a small step to the beginning of my body art. I tried again at modifying my body at 14. I decided that in order for me to feel good about my "big" belly, I should adorn it with beautiful jewelry, so I got my navel pierced. I ended up taking it out because everybody had it and I didn't like it much. My next piercing was at 16. My mother decided I should wait a couple of years to try anything else to let my body have all of its' "growing time." At this time, I got my tongue pierced. I know what you're thinking, "you took out your navel ring because everybody had it and then you get that pierced" but I got my tongue pierced because I've always had an oral fixation. I am always eating gum and biting my lip. I still have it and that was almost 2 years ago. I love it. Around this point, I decided I was officially addicted to the feeling of being pierced and the beauty that came with it. I soon got my first (and only for now) tattoo. It is a purple and black tribal sun and whenever I see it, it reminds me of my brighter days that are ahead for me. On October 1, 2002, I got my nipples pierced. It was a bad experience for me because I didn't got to my normal piercer and my nipples rejected. I plan on getting them redone. In November, I got a centre labret ring that I love and in December I got a tragus to inner conch industrial. Like I said before, I wouldn't change any of the piercings that I have had done. The bad ones taught me what 'not' to do. I have went crazy for piercings and I will not stop until I have enough. I have never felt more sexy and beautiful than I do now. When people stare at me, I take it as a compliment. I know they see the glow I possess and I have come a long way from self-hate to self-love. I owe it all to my body modification/art. I would also like to say, thank you for creating this site. Between this and BMEZINE, I have found a place where I am truly accepted. |